"This first Friday in June, all I know is I am doing my best. My very damnedest. And it looks like this…"

I felt like this today. You don’t need to hear about the numbness, excruciating pain, overwhelming anxiety, residual anxiety, paranoia, dizziness  or that I prayed to whomever was listening to just end it. Fucking end the ridiculous, relentless, ad nauseam, non-sensical hours that consume my days. Frankly it’s wearing me down, ripping me to shreds and fucking exhausting fighting invisible monsters. Yes, I know I’m sick. Yes, I understand tapering off benzos is

Grow Your Garden a love of self

Loving yourself takes time. I didn’t know not exactly, not until this moment. I never believed brushing aside the possibility of happy. Tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow I’ll embrace the quirks and eccentrities. Tomorrow. Funny time wasted. Not funny. This end of April Sunday close to May, I stand at the fault line. Middle-aged. The compost pile is toppling from all the shit dumped over the years. I don’t know about you, maybe you were born over-confident.

Clean Living is an Excellent Thing

Clean drinking makes living a glass half full. Before juicing…I am way UP UP UP for the lemon water challenge. Every morning first thing: I drink warm lemon water. Diagnosed with manic depression, anxiety, fatty liver… I needed to make some serious dietary changes. I am vigilante about my health and diet, which is no longer a chore but a pleasure. Healthy eating takes a little thought, time, but … guess what?

SATURDAY NIGHT'S HOT TICKET #SyrFWSpring2015

Syracuse Fashion Week 2015 is in high gear. Join me along with other illustrious guests for a fun, glam evening at the Landmark Gala, April 11th, 2015. BOOK SIGNING BY JACQUELINE CIOFFA AUTHOR OF THE VAST LANDSCAPE I know where I’ll be kicking up my heels this Saturday, how ’bout you? Portion of the proceeds to benefit The Food Bank of CNY, come out and support your local Community. “The Vast Landscape” Model

Stick to the basics with an edge

I hate shopping. Clothes shopping. I’ve been living in sweats and jeans the last five years, shopping hasn’t been a high priority. Writing does not require Couture, PJs are just fine and acceptable. Authors apparently require a bit more expansive wardrobe. Being invited to the Landmark Gala during Syracuse Fashion Week 2015 as a guest author of “The Vast Landscape” deserves some glam effort. So I went shopping and came back with nada, the perks

Streaming Ties That Bind: 'She never laughed anymore. Nothing was fun; life was not a game.'

She disappeared inside the land of make-believe, filled with Crayola crayons so bright she wore tinted sunglasses I always thought true love was equivalent to good poetry dying today, today, today I‘ve learned how to sleep alone with my dreams A young girl fell in love with art, without perhaps ever knowing his  name                                  

Looking Glass and The Windowpane

Let’s face it; there’s no fooling. The sagging skin, the wrinkled face, the ridiculous forty something woman in short skirts and bottled-up Botox. The gravitational pull and the eventual flight back home were booked in advance. You already hold the winning ticket. I recognize the faces in the street, the fear, the familiar grimace and disgust at the sideways glance in the shop’s windowpane. I see the doubt, the two-second